To Read or Not to Read the BL Novel Before My Final Exam? The Struggle Is Too Real

So, here's the deal. I’ve been a little MIA from my blog since March 30th - not because I abandoned my dreams or got abducted by aliens (though honestly, either one would've been easier). It’s because I was deep in the battlefield of EXAMS.

A total of 8 subjects down, and I survived. Barely. My brain now functions on noodles, emotional damage, and sheer caffeine-powered willpower. But guess what? There’s still one more subject left - June 5th is my final boss fight. You’d think I’d be in full-on study beast mode, right?

Well.

Wrong.

Because… there’s a BL web novel whispering sweet nothings into my soul: My Stubborn.

The Internal War Has Begun

My brain: “You need to study.”
My heart: “But... P'Sorn is feeling something for Jun.. angst on the way!.”
My logic: “You’ve come this far. Just finish strong.”
My dark side: “Just one chapter. You deserve it. One won’t hurt... Jun deserves it! He's a real cuty!”
Reality: One turns into fifty, and suddenly it’s 3 a.m., I’m crying over fictional boys, and my notes are judging me from across the room.

This isn’t just temptation - it’s a spiritual crisis. I can already see myself at my desk tomorrow, book open, pretending to study but actually rereading Chapter 12 for the emotional trauma.

Hold up Guys! I know I'm dramatic as eff but I have analyzed the pros and cons of reading MY STUBBORN right now!

The Pros of Reading "My Stubborn" Now

• Instant happiness. BL serotonin is unmatched.

• It might inspire me emotionally (or at least give me the strength to endure studying).

• I could finish the novel and get it out of my system.

• It’s self-care, okay?!

The Cons of Reading "My Stubborn" Now

• I’ll absolutely binge it.

• My last exam might cry itself to sleep because I neglected it.

• Post-novel heartbreak = brain fog.

• I’ll be up until sunrise, again, with zero memory of academic content.

My Realistic Plan (Maybe)

I might try to be a responsible human and finish studying tomorrow.
Or maybe I’ll reward myself with a few chapters after each study session.
(We both know that sounds noble but is also a dangerous trap.)

Or maybe... I’ll read the whole dang novel and trust my brain to remember stuff via emotional osmosis. It’s 2025, miracles happen.

Final Thoughts: Whether You Read or Study - Choose What Feeds You

Look, it’s totally normal to be torn between responsibility and desire. We’re humans, not study robots. And sometimes, giving in a little keeps you sane. I may or may not end up curled in bed, emotionally ruined by fictional men, but I’ll get up again - and I’ll face that last exam like the fierce, tired, BL-loving warrior I am.

So whether you read or study, be kind to yourself. One more subject left. You’re almost there. And hey - if you decide to read "My Stubborn"... just don’t forget to drink water and maybe glance at your notes in between chapters.

We got this. 💪📚📖✨

If anyone is curious about the novel- My stubborn on Wattpad( ongoing BL)

Haru

P.S: Guys I think I'll just read it! Edit at 9.03 P.M